Rough times

I miss blogging a bit. I might get back into it and give Facebook a bit of a break for now. I am such a people pleaser and I get so exhausted trying to be everyone's friend, only for some "friend" I thought liked me to turn around and stop talking to me without warning. I would vent about it on Facebook, but why? So someone will feel sorry for me? Life has been so overwhelming lately, so I really don't need to have anything else on my mind. Yet here I am wondering why two moms would gang up on me and get mad at me for making a congratulatory post for a mom who just had a baby, when another friend did the same today and they loved and commented on her post. Why the double standard? We both were happy and were made a post out of that joy for a friend. But somehow when I do it, I'm the bad guy, yet when another girl does it, it's okay. Yes, you can go ahead and say, "Well, they obviously weren't your friends." No, thank you for stating the obvious. But really, I thought they were and the fact they are acting like this confuses me and weighs on me, so there. Speaking of exhaustion, I am so very tired lately from the mental load I have at home, and all that happens is more is piled on me. I just want people to stop asking me questions and just figure everything out on their own. I want my husband to take over stuff for me so I can have less on my mind constantly and I can remember things again. And yes, I have communicated this quite clearly. And yet, nothing changes. Life goes on, and every day as life evolves, I find more stuff on my plate. Take for instance, our housing situation. Our lease ends May 1st. I have been trying to get out of our lease with the apartment office for weeks. I finally did, but now I need to find us a place... singlehandedly. I will also have to crunch numbers to figure out what we can and can't avoid; check crime maps and sex offended maps; plan and act on the plan for packing; figure out a moving truck. Oh, and this reminds me, I am on the computer and I need to add my van to the sunpass account and I keep forgetting to do so. I guess I'll go outside and check my license plate number (because with everything else crammed in my brain, I certainly can't remember that), and take that off my list. Meanwhile my husband unloads and loads the dishwasher while watching a show on tv that is annoying me... I haven't told him this, because I don't want the question posed, "then what do you want to watch?" Again, questions. It's all I get all day long. I'm tired. Can I just disappear? I wish...